Friday, April 27, 2007
life is full of ups and down..
but mine seems to b all down no up..
stress and sadness everyday..
why?
i juz wanna have someone who can understand me..
someone to love me..
someone to care for me..
but?
why u say i understand u
and u keep on saying things that hurt me..?
is this the way to hurt urself from falling in love with me.
is this why u keep on pretending and hiding?
if this is so...
den i hope u will live better ba...
hope u know what i do is for ur gd ba..
if u think that making me give up is gd for u..
den..
i hope u understand that i m been force to give up nt i wan..
yes this is the way i m..
u may say i m flirt..
u may sae that i m useless..
but if saying all this make u feel better..
as u wish ba..
now all i need is someone to love me..
some to care for me..
if there is ...
pls.. save me from falling..
coz falling to somewhere i dunno is very scary and honestly i dun dare to face it..
if u cant save me from fallin.. plz let go.. coz u dun understand me ...
if there is someone..
tell me.. i may wanna cry it all out..
really..
i really cant take it le...
i been withstanding all this too long le...
my heart and everything really going to tired le..
maybe going to stop soon...
frends out there.. to u all.. i may b the one always laughing joking..
but i juz dun wanna show my feelin..
i scare i may brk down..
even i m too scare to face myself..
so i think its better to hide everything ba..
actually i dun wan to b myself..
i wanna b some superman which can withstand everything..
but i m nt superman.. i nt wonder man..
i m juz a human..
a human which have feeling also..
a human which need a shoulder to cry ..
a human which will do wrong thing de..
a human which needs to cry..
a human who need loves...
but i dun think the thing i get is human de..
its more like a robot de..
i dun need a perfect gal..
i juz need..
someone to understand and care for my feeling..
why is it so hard?
why?
why?
i try to cut myself severly..
but i cant feel the pain..
yes i m numb le..
missed you @ 6:23 AM
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