Wednesday, February 15, 2006
backiethis few daes reali depressed... sumtimes feel as if i not a human.. as i m doing more than wad a human is expected to do..did u know how much i feel when u r sad angry vex? life goes when i m sad. life goes when u r sad but onli me knows how u feel but i dunno how to tell u.. sumtimes useless is how i feel..its hard to understand wad i want.. but does wad i want realli matters. to me the important things is wad u want can i gv? i try.. to the bottom of my heart.. i b true to you.. to the deepest soul of me.. i b frank to u.. my feeling to u rite now is more than words can sae le..finding a gal is easy.. finding sumone to hold my hand with is easy.. but finding a gal that i truely love.. truely needs.. truely dun wanna lose is hard.. and i found u...------bottom of my heart i swear to u i b true to u-------but as i find u .. i started to think of wad i can gv u.. not onli treasure.. not onli love.. but sumthing that can bind us together... but i cant.. so i try my best to forget the possibility of us being together.. i lie..i regret.. i hurt myself everyday..by telling u i love sumone else when my heart is with u.. hard.. its hard to understand the feeling i got....the days of you saying u need me become lesser.. the hope thinner..the love stronger.... sumtimes i ask myself y i need to do this to torture myself?? i know.. i dun wanna lose a chance of being with u.. therefore.. i strive...------to b with you.. i do anything including torturing myself-------the dae i was sad..nt b coz of her.. is b coz of u..i wasnt able to let u know i love you in my heart.. not able to tell u i wanna hug u in my arms and not letting go.. u told me u love me.. my heart stops thumping.. the words come out .. unbelieve.. i told myself.. u r trying to make me happi..as u told mi b4 its hard to forget a first love.. but u insist u love me.. and its true from ur mouth.. i try to accept..------every words from u is a treasure to mi------i accept with a dreams that has been come true.. no hiding my feeling from u... no that we are both in a road.. a path.. i dunno wad lies in front us.. i dun wanna know liao.. if being wit u is sumthing that keeps mi living.. i live with every day hoping 2 love u..loving u is a pursue for mi to live...missing an hour make mi realize hw important u mean to mi..in e end i dun care hu there.. i know i wanna face the challenge to keep u by my side.. i hope it will last(who dont).. but can i survive? i dunno.. but thanks.. for making my dream come true.. letting me mature more..------can i survive? can u b with me forever??i love you with all my life------
missed you @ 8:56 AM
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