Thursday, February 16, 2006
backie..
haiz... todae went training wpr.. then got the news i been selected for IVP.. haiz.. dunno true a not.. true liao.. but dunno i can not? can le.. dunno whether i can take the medal not.. haiz.. dunno la.. dun wanna think le.. sumtimes i hope i can go and die.. haiz.. die le no worries.. ppl wont have to care for mi tis fucker.. hate my self alot.. todae open com.. den saw fernades add mi in frendster.. i was so shock and afraid.. is there a motive behind wad he did.. reali dunno
.. dunno wanna accept his request or? hai so stressed.. alot of things make me stress...in life we need to learn alot.. like how to solve ur problem.. but me? a useless pig tht cannot do any archeivement in life.. y god dun lemme die but torture me? .. haiz.. forget it..
-----friends----
it means a little to me when i did something nice to u
but it means a lot to u
its means some much to mi when u were there for me
but it means so little for u
its means so much to mi when u r hurt
but to u u dun wanna c mi hurt more
missed you @ 7:59 AM
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Wednesday, February 15, 2006
backiethis few daes reali depressed... sumtimes feel as if i not a human.. as i m doing more than wad a human is expected to do..did u know how much i feel when u r sad angry vex? life goes when i m sad. life goes when u r sad but onli me knows how u feel but i dunno how to tell u.. sumtimes useless is how i feel..its hard to understand wad i want.. but does wad i want realli matters. to me the important things is wad u want can i gv? i try.. to the bottom of my heart.. i b true to you.. to the deepest soul of me.. i b frank to u.. my feeling to u rite now is more than words can sae le..finding a gal is easy.. finding sumone to hold my hand with is easy.. but finding a gal that i truely love.. truely needs.. truely dun wanna lose is hard.. and i found u...------bottom of my heart i swear to u i b true to u-------but as i find u .. i started to think of wad i can gv u.. not onli treasure.. not onli love.. but sumthing that can bind us together... but i cant.. so i try my best to forget the possibility of us being together.. i lie..i regret.. i hurt myself everyday..by telling u i love sumone else when my heart is with u.. hard.. its hard to understand the feeling i got....the days of you saying u need me become lesser.. the hope thinner..the love stronger.... sumtimes i ask myself y i need to do this to torture myself?? i know.. i dun wanna lose a chance of being with u.. therefore.. i strive...------to b with you.. i do anything including torturing myself-------the dae i was sad..nt b coz of her.. is b coz of u..i wasnt able to let u know i love you in my heart.. not able to tell u i wanna hug u in my arms and not letting go.. u told me u love me.. my heart stops thumping.. the words come out .. unbelieve.. i told myself.. u r trying to make me happi..as u told mi b4 its hard to forget a first love.. but u insist u love me.. and its true from ur mouth.. i try to accept..------every words from u is a treasure to mi------i accept with a dreams that has been come true.. no hiding my feeling from u... no that we are both in a road.. a path.. i dunno wad lies in front us.. i dun wanna know liao.. if being wit u is sumthing that keeps mi living.. i live with every day hoping 2 love u..loving u is a pursue for mi to live...missing an hour make mi realize hw important u mean to mi..in e end i dun care hu there.. i know i wanna face the challenge to keep u by my side.. i hope it will last(who dont).. but can i survive? i dunno.. but thanks.. for making my dream come true.. letting me mature more..------can i survive? can u b with me forever??i love you with all my life------
missed you @ 8:56 AM
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Tuesday, February 14, 2006
things in this world has a temporary stand but a permanent effect
things u imagine has a temporary dreams but a permanent affect
things that u deem to have eventually will leave
things that u thou has becum urs will eventually nt b
things that u think will last will eventually b lose if u dun treasure
things that seems simple may turn out to b hard and diffcult
things that seem not urs will eventually b..
sumtime its hard to tell
but sumtimes it is easy
we may seems like a frend
but in long,
u will forget hu i m
i will slowly let go of the frendship
but in first
did u ever try to treasure
did u ever try to understand
i try so much
but will u ever know?
the way u teach me to do things
the way u tell me wad is wrong and rite
the way u ask me how i feel
but now?
you wont even call me
not say a greeting from u
not to say a hi when we saw each other
so how shud i live with it?
i shud nw try to understand wad u trying to tell me
u r telling mi to let go
this is another thing you teach me
b strong..
b very strong
b cold
b very cold
sumtimes i wonder hw
but now i know......
i shud b the demon now
u b the angel
we shud nv met......
missed you @ 9:18 AM
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