Saturday, September 03, 2005
wake up le. but still dun wish to think tht its another dae. wishing everything that happen was bluff.even carol call me. i dun wanna accept the call. i dun wanna accept the fact she brk with me le. what can i do? i stick on the bed till 5pm den stand up. keep laughing but?? in my heart i so sad. i dun wanna let go. can u come back 2 mi? can u take back ur words? can i hold ur hands again. my mind is very blur. i dunno who 2 trust. dunno who to talk 2. u sae u rarely can hug me. but nw? u dun even want 2. i still living in u. keep asking myself what i did wrong. did u ever miss me? can tell me? over the past few weeks. i was hoping you could hold me. when u hold me that dae. it was very close. i told myself after u i could not find another gal le. the hug was so tight that i know its was u that i was looking 4. m i bluffing myself? or i think too much? or m i replacement 4 him. if i was i can b replacement. reading this blog de ppl shud think i very foolish. but i knw my heart is with her. she took my heart away. so much so i dunno what i going 2 do without her. no strength le. thinking of ending my life straight. but i still hope 2 see her. it may hurt. but i m waiting 4 e day she come back and hold my hand. or even rest on my chest. she is e first gal 2 rest on my chest. did u remeber the dae on mrt? u rest on my chest and just doze off lidat. how i hope the time will stop just there. i wrote a song 4 u. but do i have the chance 2 sing it 2 u. i try my best 2 . but... who knows my pain?
missed you @ 5:26 PM
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